"I called thee and there was no answer."
I see truth and it forms a vision in front of me. I hear words and it mingles with the distant murmuring. And I just fade away.
I was born and you branded me with a name, you people, you, made a character out of me, put me in a role before I understood the act.
Maybe that is why I cried out loud when I was born, maybe out of defiance, maybe out of hate for these rituals that is going to cling into me like a second skin which i cannot peel off. Maybe that was why I was afraid to open my eyes with fear of what I might see. I was innocent.
Humans, we live in a Society. We call it a gathering of the like minded. Why do you want me to be like you? I do not want to be like you. You made kneel so I could kiss the sky. I would rather kiss the ground beneath me. To there you will go with me in the end. Did it help you then? Did it help you now? Didn't we die the same death? You were the one who taught me the vices. Now you are the one who frown at me. If this is your religion then what is your faith? if this your faith then what is your religion?
I tried to walk the path you told me about. The enchanted one. The one that leads to the fulfillment of our purpose. But what is the purpose? Why are you confused when I ask you that question? You want me to be two persons at the same time. I am but one. My mind is my soul, my body is my heart. Are they not one? Why do you try to separate them? Do one man live to support different purposes. If I have to be blind, why do I have these eyes.
You say there is an Eye in the Sky. The Master who we cannot see. How am I suppose to serve a master whom I cannot see? Isn't that being selfish, being person who desires. Carnal or not desires are for the same purpose. We don't know the reason why we should do but we want the end result. You want the fruit of the tree you planted no matter how less you cared for the tree. And if the tree does not bear any fruit you see it as a misfortune or a result of some greedy eyes. Or because there is evil in it. Where is your conscience now?
You asked me to believe in something which you called "faith". You asked me to be weak in my mind. And when I remained idle to prove that I have "faith" and that "faith" shall provide you said i am not good for anything. What hypocrisy is this? Now tell me are you not a confused one.
I was there always believing that the best would come out of it, for the words were golden, honey coloured, sweet and tempting. Did you not tempt me with those words. Wasn't you the one who called evil things to be tempting. Why do you tempt me now of freedom of Heaven? And if you want me to believe in your words why force me with the terror of the future and not with just the love of the present. So you want "faith" without trust.
I've seen times of darkness before my eyes. Where is your light now? Where are the miracles I have heard of? Now if you say our purpose is a test, why tell the result beforehand. Let it be a purposeful test. What your religion destroyed more, your evil destroyed lesser. Your religion hates me more without reason than my inner evil, as you call, hates your religion with reason.
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